All logic aside, I feel like we are missing a huge part of our family and I haven't had a dry eye since we said goodbye. Bodhi was there as my husband and I navigated our way through our first years of marriage, she transitioned with us as we bought our first home, the home that we would bring our first child home to and she learned with us how to love more than any of us knew we could as our little pack grew.
Now my home feels empty and hollow. But deep down, I know that soon the empty halls will be filled with the gurgles of a newborn baby and the excitement of a new big brother. I know I will be able to concentrate my love and attention on my new, larger family without feeling torn in too many directions. I know it's the right decision, but that doesn't make this any easier. I miss that furry little face more than I can possibly express.
I know I don't usually share a lot of my personal life here but I had to be true to myself and my feelings today and I hope you don't mind. Tomorrow I will be back to regular scheduled programming.